Wednesday, September 25, 2013


     Today marks 2 years since I first started writing this blog. It seems like just the other day I was staring at the text space, going back and forth about whether this was a good idea. 'A blog? Me? Write my thoughts so everyone could see? Uhh...i don't know about that.' And then I pressed publish. Of course I had the option of forgetting about this silly fantasy I had in my mind and just deleting it. But something stopped me and so I continued to write. It's incredible how much fear can really limit you from even attempting at trying something. Your mind thinks up of a million reasons of what could go wrong...and before you know it the time passes by anyway. 
     If you asked me how I knew I wanted to be a photographer, I'm not really sure I could explain it. It's almost as if God whispered over my shoulder that day and said, 'This is it, you found go!' As silly as it sounds, I felt it in my heart. Who would have known a day of procrastinating a paper would change everything? There are days I just want to give up. Forget I even thought about this in the first place. But then I start to think, what if giving up means I never become what was planned for me? What if there's something beautiful waiting if I just give it time? I wouldn't want to miss out on something amazing just because of fear.
     And so, every single photograph I have taken and will take is a reflection of who I am. My photographs depict what I love, who I love, my thoughts, my faith...they are everything I see in my mind coming to life. No one knows what the future holds, and truth be told sometimes that really scares me. But I try to tell myself (even when it becomes unbearable) that with faith....absolutely nothing is impossible. 
     Sometimes all it takes is a quote or a verse, a song, a movie, or a loved one to remind me that it's always there...and to never ever let go of it. I've learned so much this year, and can only hope I will never stop. Here's to following your heart and chasing after your dreams...and to never forget that little whisper that tells you 'This is go!' Happy Wednesday! 

1 comment:

  1. It doesn't sound silly at have to feel it in your heart in order to know it is your true calling...for you to realize your passion in a truly beautiful art form is absolutely inspiring and it reminds me especially that God truly is all around us. Congrats on all your success Barbara and I hope we can catch up soon.